I have been talking with a rock over the past few weeks. I know, I know…this is not typical behavior so let me explain.
I recently attended the Entrepreneurial Women’s Expo in State College, PA. The opening keynote speaker, Amy Frank walked us through an exercise to help us uncover our ‘compass’. At the close of the session, she asked us to write our two-word result on a rock that was neatly cloaked in a simple brown wrapper.
Sometimes these events cause me great angst.
This was one of them. My daughter also attended the event; otherwise I would have bailed. For some reason I experienced what I call an energetic tantrum as we approached the event – so much so that I pulled off to the side of the road for a few minutes to pull myself together.
Sometimes, it takes all I have to jump into the flow of some settings as I try desperately to appear even remotely social. To be perfectly honest, I don’t know why I even sign up for these events. I think it is because I so desperately want to move beyond my hesitations and secretly crave human connection at some level.
Familiar faces for my daughter and I both helped ease the internal tremors.
But my mind raced through the list of things that I should be doing instead of wasting a full day at this damn event. I quietly gave the Universe permission for my phone to ring with some sort of Reiki or hypnosis emergency that would require my full and immediate attention.
I sat at a table with strange women, all whom seemed to immensely enjoy the time to chat and make nice with each other – bleck. God, why was I here – this really couldn’t be the best use of my time, could it?
The speaker had us dash to a different table with even more strangers – this was my limit.
No more moving or new people. I just wanted to slink out the back door and be gone…oh wait, I couldn’t leave my daughter (or could I).
It was then that a vivid memory of my smoking days wafted through my olfactory index. This would be a perfect time for a smoke, but I released that habit more than 15 years ago.
For the first time in many years, I suddenly remembered a benefit of lighting up; it got me out of these uncomfortable situations. Doodling, I could doodle. That would work and nobody would smell me drawing on my program.
Amy then had us open the simply decorated brown bags on the table and walked us through finding our compass. I was never so happy to see a list of words, this would keep my mind busy and I could forget about all these strangers around me.
So I picked my words from each list as instructed – I can follow the rules, sometimes.
At the completion of the exercise, two words appeared on my rock ‘Inspire Authenticity’ written in violet marker with great care.
This was my compass – my true North.
If I allow these two words to guide me, I can honor my internal compass.
Could it really be this simple, just two words? Yep, it could be.
Over the past few weeks I have allowed a rock to guide me – makes perfect sense?!. When I look at my to do list and try to find the time to do the things that mean the most to me; I simply ask, does this Inspire Authenticity?
For weeks I planned to go on an outing around Pennsylvania to enjoy the Fall golden-red shimmering foothills.
As the time approached it worked out that I would make the trek alone. In the past I would have altered my plans and stayed around to do what others wanted. But not this time, I needed the time to explore, so I set off early before everyone was out of bed.
My compass guided me all over the northern part of our state.
My authenticity was indeed inspired, my soul nurtured and my compassion filter fluffed. This was exactly what I needed, a day to myself, honoring the flow of brisk snowy breeze and the leaves blanketing the ground.
I found myself again reminded that when I think there is no time for a day of networking or self-care or a day away from the grind; that is exactly when I need it the most.
I keep my rock compass in my office as a reminder – is what I am doing inspiring authenticity?
Thank you Amy Frank for offering such a simple insight, it was worth the tantrum.
Are you allowing your compass to help you find your true North and guide your journey?
What two words could sum up your soul’s purpose?
There are lots of great events happening at Inspired Holistic Wellness in November Events. I hope to see you soon.
Blessings for all the very best.