Life is a struggle.
Contend with adversity. Conquer your opponent. Compete with your adversary.
We strive to become better, make more money, get that promotion, and to win the contest of life.
Push, pull, hope, fear, plan, nothing – absolutely nothing left to chance. No room for disaster, nor joy and laughter. Everything must go according to schedule and the schedule according to the plan – striving, searching, regimented and real, very real.
Plodding along, making my way in life.
Holding it all together, holding everyone all together. Like a well-oiled machine, very mechanical. No down time, no rest, no worry – just push forward, keep moving.
We are taught from an early age that striving to do our very best is critical to our success. Run quickly, study, work hard, be well rounded. No edges, you won’t be able to support your family if you don’t go to college, you must find your passion – all of this before your 18th trip around the sun.
We struggle to find our place in this world and we struggle to navigate the ups and downs.
For some, the struggle seems intense for a very long time. Some appear to have given-up and others seem to be able to hover above all this crap.
Yesterday, I found myself taking inventory of the current struggles. And without disappointment; the mind began bouncing the experiences from side to side as if The Who’s pinball wizard was managing the flippers.
Lights and bells flashing as the digit counter spins.
The vibrations of the pushing, struggling, and failing was resonating through my palms and down my spine. The silver ball was bouncing from bumper to bumper and lighting up the board. I was playing the ‘mean pinball’ and there were 3 replays.
Dizzy from playing with the wizard-like sense of smell, I could hear in the distance “breathe, just breathe”. Allowing the flippers to rest, I watched the silver streak slam into the far left lane as it plunked into the drain. The display flashed TILT as the mind began to reset. These struggles felt real, there was a noticeable visceral response, where did all of this come from?
Why is life so challenging? What is the purpose of struggling? Shouldn’t life be easy?
I had a vague recollection of some reference in “Course in Miracles” to struggle, so I went searching. The lesson that was most helpful for me is:
Course in Miracles lesson 107 – “Truth will correct all errors in my mind.”
“I rest in peace and gratitude in the strength of my Self. The weight of the world is lifted from my shoulders, for the errors of the world are corrected as I let truth correct the errors in my mind. God’s peace is mine. I accept it now. With gratitude I offer that peace to all the world.”
Maybe the truth for me is behind the apron of struggle. Could I find peace without the struggle?
I believe that I am stronger because I have struggled.
I believe my mind does have erroneous thoughts and that it is easy to get bogged down in the struggle of striving.
Are you willing to explore releasing the weight of the world and inviting the pinball wizard energy into your life? How do you think he does it?
“Ain’t got no distractions, Can’t hear no buzzers and bells, Don’t see no lights a flashing, Plays by sense of smell”.
If you are at a point in your life that you find yourself saying there has to be more to life than this? Take a look at the events, schedule a time to chat with me. Maybe the help you are looking for is right around the corner.
May you rest in peace pinball wizards.